Hmmz...I attended Alex's ah ma's funeral today...went with Vera...

The petite old lady is very nice one...I still remember how she gave us Ang Bao during CNY...and still remember there is ONCE I played mahjong with her and Alex's mum and Alex's aunt...

I was in fact a bit nervous when we reached the entrance of peach garden..I was wondering how am I going to face the big family after breaking up with Alex....

But of cos they are nice chaps and so why should I be afraid..and breaking up is a normal thing...I just hope to pay my last respect to the old lady who had left some memories in me...

I was contradicting abt how to address the family before I went into the house and I decided to address them as usual, the way Alex addresses them....cos I respect them and I still remembered how nice they treated me in the past....

The feelings are very confusing...I feel sad abt the whole event....I believe I will somehow miss them...all of them...I tried to fight back the tears in me...

All these are fated....it is history but of cos will always be in my memories...

I saw Alex's parents and Elder brother, Adrian and his family...addressed them and can sense the awkwardness in us...I miss the parents...

They treated me like their own....his dad will cook for me and always take note that I dun really take spicy food...his mum will also take care of me when I am sick...

I will just treat their house just like my own home....

I can feel family warmth which I dun feel in my own home...

BUT all these are just temporary and they have to be history cos I am no longer Alex's girlfriend....and without saying, will not be the wife of his, neither the daughter-in-law of them....

I once msg Ruishi, asking if she is interested to acc. me to meet up with the parents for a meal or something but she finds that it is better to erase the history cos she is already attached happily and leads her own life now...

I understand tat cos she dun wish to remember the unhappy stuff....maybe I am slightly different...cos Alex didn't betray me at all....and we are still friends...

Anyway, I went inside to take a look at Ah ma...when I arrived and before I leave...saw my favourite uncle of Alex too...7th uncle...he shaked my hand and smiled...

3rd aunt, wife of his 3rd uncle also smiled at me....yah she was the aunt whom I played mahjong with too... => Genevieve's mother...a very cheerful lady....

Saw Alex's dad too...he permed his hair...hehe...looked funny... =P

And the two kids of Adrian has grown up...taller and they are getting more alike...I almost cannot differentiate them....opps... =P

In fact, I wonder.....will this be the last time I see them.....haiz....guess this is part and parcel of life ba....life still go on.....

Before leaving, I sort of comforted Alex's mum and said that I will meet her up for a meal or something when I am free and she replied "Really?...dun forget wor...."

3rd aunt was sitting with her and then I go "Next time can play mahjong together..." but then noticed that there are only three of us...3rd aunt then commented that 7th aunt can join us... =>

Yah...I still hope to keep in contact with the sweet ladies...cos they were nice to me in the past....I wun forget....

BUT....I believe someday all these will just fade away....when Alex get to know a new girlfriend....and when I also busy with my life with my boyfriend and his family, all these will just fade away....

THIS is life............................but I will always remember this big family.... =>

Oh ya....tomolo Alex's 2nd bro is getting married...no matter what mistakes he had made in the past, I sincerely wish that his marriage will be a blissful one and hope that he will lead a happy life ahead....

Cos this 2nd bro of Alex will always be that SOMEONE who always "scared" me in the middle of the night when I walked around in the kitchen....haha...

7th uncle's little son is also growing up....he can even walk on his own now....see...this is life...life goes on and on, with no allowance for u to stop...

Alex drove us to the Paya Lebar MRT with Genevieve too...yah this cheerful pretty cute cousin of his......she simply enjoy teasing Alex and I enjoy ganging up with her to do tat too...haha...big bullies!!.... =P

Oh...never get to see Keith...guess he must be using his computer in the room....

I am sorry Alex.....once again...I know I hurt u badly but guess all these are destined....we are just not fated to be together but I treasured the memories we had for the past two years....

I sincerely hope you will find the ONE who will treasure you as much as how you treasure her....

Alex.....learn to be more decisive in life ok...learn to be more thoughtful for people around you as well....not just your girlfriend alone....it is sweet to just have your life surrounded around your girlfriend but I believe there are a lot more things in life that need your attention too....

Treasure EVERY single person in your life especially your parents....they love you and you better STOP ur rubbish and STOP being a KING at home....LOLx.. =P

Oh ya....suddenly remember that you THIS KING has been demoted cos there is a new QUEEN in your family...hehe... =P

Always think before you talk....dun always crap around...ppl dun take u seriously ok.... =>

I know you are serious but sometimes you need to SHOW ppl that you are really serious and not just JOKINGLY tell ppl that you are serious...who will believe...right... =>

You know I will always be the friend there for you....

Last but not least....really really thanks for all the past memories you given me....and I am very very sorry that I chose to give up our relationship....take care always and ride carefully always....

Tata..........................................

Oh ya...in fact I wanted to blog abt my Cambodia trip thingy too but it is now 447am already and I still need to wake up early tomolo morning for bowling....so next entry ok.... =>

Hmmz...AND I am thankful that Stanley is such an understanding bf...I was even scared that he will mind me going to the wake....in fact he encouraged me to go and even said "Of cos you must go...."....

I am very lucky and fortunate to meet these guys in my life....

Thanks for all the patience and love you all have been showing me....and I know friends and family around me are very worried abt me....

Dun worry....I will stand strong no matter what...I will definitely find the directions in my life soon....although the path in front of me is DAMN DAMN dark...but I really really hope I can see the light soon....angie JIAYOU!!.... =>